Secret Spaces {and LINKY}

Thankfully, God loves us too much to allow the beauty of His love to be overcome by darkness of our pasts.

Many of us live lives of duplicity. We are confused, having misled ourselves into believing that we are free of the chains of our past. When we look back at the journey of our lives, we proudly mis-conclude that we have moved beyond the effects of the devastating points of our journey. Yet, the power of our painful past influences our choices in innumerable direct and indirect ways. Choices regarding our relationships, professional life, parenting style, friendships, ministry and more are all affected by our experiences. We store the ruins of the most painful moments deep within. However,

twittericonGod desires the secret spaces in our hearts.

He knows the dark corners where we hide our pain, secrets and shame. And he longs for us to invite him into our most protected hiding places. For it is within these dark, hidden rooms that we have tried to lock away those experiences that are the most painful. This is where we have stashed the remnants of abuse, neglect, disappointment, or heartbreak.

We struggle with opening those long-sealed doors. For behind them lie secrets or emotions so black, we are ashamed even to face them. We are unable, or unwilling, to see how they continue to impact our lives, so we convince ourselves that the doors are better left closed.

We are comfortable with our secret rooms, not only do they hide our hurts, they give us a place to hide as well.

Our identity is often intertwined with much of the mess stored within these places. Subconsciously we question who we will be if we let them go. We wonder what will be left of us when our purpose isn’t fueled by what lies deep within.

Then, we fear the risk of exposure. Our stored-away hurts or guilt barely allow us to love ourselves. How will others love us if they really knew what we had experienced? Or what we were capable of?

But, these locked-off rooms are even more insidious than they seem.

Because, here is an important truth:

twittericonour past directly influences our desire to submit to the will of God for our lives.

When we hold our hurts close, refusing to turn them over to our Savior, they become barriers. Instead of offering the expected protection, they serve as blockades separating us from our Lord. We cling to our experiences, desperately believing them able of keeping us from further hurt, but instead, they keep us from experiencing the love and peace that comes only through intimately knowing Christ.

Many of us tremble at the prospect of bringing the full sinfulness of our hearts to the Lord. We struggle with trusting Him in our hiding places. Thankfully, He gives us more grace for this, as well. Because He loves us, God will continue to knock at our secret doors.

twittericonGod loves us too much to allow the beauty of His love to be overcome by darkness of our pasts.

He doesn’t simply pursue us until we accept Jesus as our Savior, but He pursues us until we have given ourselves completely to Him. He pursues us as we grow in faith and godliness.

God will relentlessly and lovingly pursue us right up to the hiding places of our hearts.

And if we are brave enough to open the door, and allow Him to carry away those burdens we were never meant to bear, we will experience new freedom in and through the Lord.

Once we have invited our Savior to enter into our secret spaces, and excavate those hurts that we are unable to free ourselves from, our freedom will compel us to love Him. We will become fully enabled to present our lives as a fragrant offering to Christ, through submission to His purpose and plans.

This process of becoming free from our chains will not be simple. Our past has contributed to our present, and is a part of the lens through which we see and experience life. Exchanging our limited understanding of the world, for God’s wisdom and will is scary and can leave us feeling naked and vulnerable.

Yet, God accepts the offering of our vulnerability, and gives us new strength.

If we are willing to patiently undergo the excavation process, confronting our hurts without succumbing to the numbing or avoidance options that the world offers,

He will give us wings like eagles to rise high above the pain of our past.

We will run the race and not become weary

We will walk and not feel faint.

For prayer on today’s topic please stop by Daily Hope & a Prayer.

For further study- Isaiah:40

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  1. Oh my sweet friend, how I am learning the truth of your words. He loves us too much to leave us in our stubborn resolve to keep secrets of the past hidden away in the darkness of shame. He came so that we could be free! The evil one speaks all manner of lies to us, trying to silence us. But our heavenly Father is so much greater, and His plan for us is beyond amazing. In my post today, I am speaking of the power of sharing our stories, especially our stories of brokenness – and how God’s hand is at work. I have felt God prompting me to invite others to share their stories too, so a mighty work of healing might begin. I would be honored if you’d stop by and share your thoughts.

    Much love,
    Kamea Hope recently posted…Stones of Remembrance… And Invitation!My Profile

    • Kamea, it would be my deep honor and pleasure to share my story. Likewise, I would love for you to share your story of hope and God’s grace for Hope Day Wednesday! Blessings to you!
      Letetia recently posted…Secret Spaces {and LINKY}My Profile

      • That is so wonderful Letetia! I have a submission for next week already, so whenever you are able to – you can email me your post. I was thinking about 800-1000 words, your testimony of how God is redeeming your brokenness for good, and ways that you have seen His faithfulness, etc. As far as sharing for your Hope Day Wednesday, let me know what you are looking for specifically, and when you would like a submission by. Thanks for blessing so many with your words of hope!
        Much love,
        Kamea Hope recently posted…Stones of Remembrance… And Invitation!My Profile

  2. Letitia, I’m smiling and I’m incredulous, because we do it all the time — this silly habit of hiding our heart from a sovereign God. How gracious He is to wait for us, to lead us gently toward full disclosure. I do love Isaiah 40. Thanks for this post and for hosting the link up!
    Michele Morin recently posted…Blind Spots: A Book ReviewMy Profile

  3. It’s when we allow God into the secret places that we are healed. It may be a process, but the more we try to ignore those places, the harder it will be. God love us and wants to transform us from the inside. I love the Isaiah 40 passage! The secret places theme reminds me of a poem I wrote last year. I’ll add it to the linkup, too.

  4. Beautiful. There is power in the place of vulnerability. How right you are. I have been thinking a lot about this lately too. It brings life and a place of connection. Great points that convict today! Cheering you on from the #RaRalinkup on Purposeful Faith.
    Kelly Balarie recently posted…Find God’s Grace in the Midst of DisgraceMy Profile

    • Kelly, thank you so much for stopping by. That place of vulnerability is so difficult, but so necessary. May God bless you as you continue in your mission to encourage the encouragers. Blessings to you!
      Letetia recently posted…Daily Hope & a Prayer – May 8My Profile

  5. I love this – it is why the story of Lot hit me in such a big way. God’s grace is sooo huge in pulling us out. I have a quote for you:
    “When oppressors have walked all over us, the plowed up ground left by their feet can become a fertile place for God to cultivate some seed. Make no mistake, desperation digs a hole where a tree gets planted, whether the fruit it bears is good or bad.” (Beth Moore)
    I’m going to reread your post. I have been wanting to ask God to examine the secret places just in case there are any that I’ve sealed rather than healed.
    Angela Martin recently posted…I don’t want to be capable!My Profile

  6. This is a post which speaks directly to my heart; what you’ve said about the past affecting your present in terms of giving your whole self to God is exactly what I know I have been struggling with in my walk with Him. I’ve let the disappointments of the past hold me back from trusting Him with our future, but yet we humans think that we can hide that lack of trust from Him (as if does not know our hearts already anyway. 🙂

    A very timely message for this place in my life; thank you for sharing these thoughts, b/c God is using them to meet me in the exact place I am right now.
    Six Pack Mommy recently posted…Go 4th And ProsperMy Profile

    • I, too, have been struggling with untangling myself from my past so that I am free to walk in God’s future. I love God so much, and I know that He has proven faithful time and time again, but still, the daily walk can be difficult. Thankfully, there is grace for that was well! Blessings to you, and thank you for stopping by!
      Letetia recently posted…Daily Hope & a Prayer – May 8My Profile

  7. This is absolutely beautiful! Thank you for your heart and your words! So glad I found your link on Suzie Eller’s #livefree Thursday link up! Hoping I will get to meet you at She Speaks!

  8. This is absolutely beautiful! Thank you for sharing your words and your heart. So glad I clicked over from #livefreeThursday. Hope I can find you at She Speaks!
    Liz recently posted…Change MeMy Profile

  9. Yes, your words really hit home! I use to live like this. Keeping my past hurts, pain, and shame! I would go to church every week and serve in the church, but never really surrendering all of me to God.
    I was scared! Scared of letting go of the things that consumed me … I was scared of God really doing something amazing in me! (Go figure)
    When I finally made a commitment to God and myself and surrendered those dark corners of my life,.. things started to change !
    Things didn’t just change for me … but also in the life of my husband…of my family..
    God is good!!

  10. How we can even fathom hiding anything from our loving Father is beyond me. Yet…we constantly fool ourselves. I know that I am guilty of allowing my past to ruin my present. Though I constantly tell myself that He has forgiven me I struggle deeply with forgiving myself. I feel I have lost so much due to mistakes I made without even thinking about it. My present is so different from what it could have been and I know that I spend more time than I should mourning what could have been. It’s a daily struggle but I’m working on refocusing and giving it up to Him. Thank you because as usual you have helped me to see “God loves us too much to allow the beauty of His love to be overcome by darkness of our pasts”. Blessings to you! ♥
    Celi recently posted…King of GloryMy Profile

    • Celi, like you I have so many more regrets than I wish I did. I know that I should trust God with my past, but it’s the walking that out that sometimes proves difficult. So honored to encourage the encouragers! Blessings!
      Letetia recently posted…Daily Hope & a Prayer – May 8My Profile

  11. I love love love that picture! Thank goodness for God’s love and forgiveness.
    Heaven recently posted…How to Use Hardened Brown SugarMy Profile

  12. Your post was so well-written! I usually will highlight something that stands out to me and comment about it, but in this case, I would be highlighting your entire blog post! Very edifying!

    I was especially struck by your tweet “our past directly affects our willingness to submit to the will of God”. So very true.

    Thank you for sharing!

    • Karen, thank you for stopping by and visiting! I am still working through how my past affects my willingness to submit my future, and it is a blessing to be able to share with others. God bless!
      Letetia recently posted…Daily Hope & a Prayer – May 8My Profile

  13. It took me too long to surrender my secret spaces. So, thankful God didn’t give up on me. He kept working on and with me until complete surrender was the only choice. What a great and gracious God. God bless you!
    Deb Wolf recently posted…Prayer for Times When You Don’t Want to SurrenderMy Profile

  14. Beautifully written and so true. I’m glad I found your website!

  15. May we release our all burdens, including those painful consequences from our past, to Jesus and lay them at the foot of His cross! Thanks for the beautiful post & for hosting & God bless!
    Laurie Collett recently posted…Remembering “Baba” – A Proverbs 31 GrandmotherMy Profile

  16. Thanks for linking up at Women With Intention Wednesdays! I look forward to what you’ll link up this week! Pinned!
    Jenny recently posted…Creating Your Summer BudgetMy Profile

  17. Beautiful! I love that He continues to knock at our secret doors.

    Thank you for sharing (and for linking up to the #SHINEbloghop).

    I hope you’ll stop by again tomorrow!

    Wishing you a lovely day.
    Jennifer recently posted…How to Include Art in Your Homeschool CurriculumMy Profile


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