The reality that we are fully loved by an all-powerful, all-knowing, all-seeing, perfect God can be more than many of us are able – or willing – to grasp. We struggle with the idea that a God as Holy as our own, who also calls us to holiness, could gaze upon us –and all our flaws – with anything more than love derived from pity and tedious frustration. As we contemplate His greatness, we question how God, through whom all creation exists, could so deeply desire servants as messy as we. If we have not yet come to fully comprehend His all-encompassing love for us, we reject the concept as null, because we, as humans, are not capable of it.
This inner-battle to accept that God loves us exceedingly rages strongest during those seasons that we have relied on our own power – and failed.
When we have we have trusted in our own ability to forgive, succeed, change, grow, or cope, we will eventually come to a point of spiritual and mental exhaustion, frustrated by our futility.
Deceived by self-righteousness and unknowingly drunk with pride, we suddenly awaken from our self-propelled stupor to find that our journey has led us to the unmistakable doors of our shortcomings, faults, or out-right sinfulness. Whispers of doubt rise to the surface of our subconscious on the back of disappointment in self. And though we desperately want to believe that we are loved, somewhere, in the deepest, darkest part of our hearts – we fear that we are not.
Yet, because He has proven Himself to us time and time again, we are just as desperate to cling to the hope that He is with us. For, we have come to understand that without Him we are nothing.
The stories of our lives have produced immeasurable evidence of a personal, powerful, proactive God. And His faithfulness has impressed upon us the magnitude of His power.
Having walked with Him beside us-
Having thrown exhausted arms around His neck as He carried us-
Having clasped frantically onto His waiting hand when He rescued us from almost falling times without number-
we know that our only hope lies in Him, for without Him we have no hope.
So we refuse to give up. Though worn and weary, we press closer toward Him. Every other step seems to introduce new pain, but our righteous fear of turning away from Him, supersedes the fear our circumstance.
We are beaten.
We are bruised.
We are overwhelmed.
But we are not overcome.
Yet, our intimate experience with His faithfulness only serves to deepen our confusion as to why He has not answered our cry.
These times of great weakness, when our soul cries out in exceeding despair, are not designed to destroy us.
These are God-orchestrated moments.
Our points of brokenness are divinely assigned.
A loving God has intentionally appointed them for the purpose of drawing us closer to Him. These great chasms – these seemingly unsurpassable gulfs are God-dispensed seasons whereby we are given the opportunity to throw our hands up in surrender, fall into His arms, and boldly acknowledge that we are human, frail and weak.
Then, in our weakness, as the power of God rests upon us, we find new strength.
We begin to experience hope.
We are surrounded by peace.
We learn to embrace joy.
We understand that we can choose to forgive.
In these great and gloriously prescribes points of weakness, we willingly take up our cross and follow our Savior, finally able to declare as He did “Nonetheless, they will be done”.
Here in our own Gethsemane, we bow ourselves low and pray feverishly for strength. And as we sweat so profusely that we could almost swear the drops glinted red with blood, He appears. He gathers us closer into His presence, and gently strengthens us that we might finish the journey. And the same power that raised Christ from the dead falls upon us, as He lifts us, steadies us, and leads us through our circumstance. For through this journey we begin to resemble His son, and reflect His glory.
He will not give up on us.
He will not forsake us.
He does not forget us.
But, like a great champion, He will proudly display our lives as a banner of His love, so that the world will know that God gives victory over sin, and shortcomings, and weakness.
And so, we press on, because we have tasted the Lord – and He is good.
So, for all of you who, like me, feel more like it’s a Wednesday than a Monday, here’s…
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