God has been trying to bring me into quiet time with Him lately, but I’ve been very resistant. It isn’t that I don’t want to spend quiet time with Him.
But, well, I have been fighting one of the most intense spiritual battles of my life. And the truth is, there is nowhere to hide in the quiet. So I stay busy. Even when I don’t have to. It’s beginning to wear on me. I’ve even been avoiding the few moments of quiet before bedtime, which causes me to stay up until I practically fall out from exhaustion. This isn’t a new place for me. I’ve fought spiritual battles. And I have come to know that the there is power in, and victory through, the weapons of spiritual warfare. In times like these, it is important to Stay close to God, Pray, Journal, and Fast. Yet, though I know these to be valid and powerful spiritual weapons, still, I struggle with the desire to hide.
It’s the pain that causes me to want to hide.
And the fear of the future unknown.
So, like a small nocturnal animal, I nervously survey the outer rim of my busyness burrow, fearful of the light (my unknown) above that cannot be avoided. Busily, I burrow deeply in activities, and blogging, and family, and whatever else I can find, if I only I can avoid feeling. But, you know what? It doesn’t work. We can try to hide, but the problem will only stubbornly remain, and usually, it only becomes worse. Because the more we burrow, the more the darkness grows around us.
The inherent danger of burrowing is becoming buried.
Further, if we choose to hide, instead of seeking solace in our Savior, we will grow spiritually stagnant. This only lengthens the growing process. Because, of this we can be certain: our trials are the mechanism of the growing process.
Jesus himself reminded us that in this life, we would face tribulations. We live in a fallen world, marred by sin, which we face everyday – much of it our own. Sin has consequences. Whether the result of personal sin, or a byproduct of original sin, we will each arrive at times that try our very being.
Yet God, who loves us, uses our darkest hour to elevate us closer to Him.
In these moments of deep crisis, when only God can rescue, we have the opportunity to choose faith. If we run toward Him, not for a specific outcome, but for His desired will, we will find that we have pressed into a new level of faith and a closer relationship with our Savior. When we determine to love God for who He is, and trust Him with our heart, instead of seeking what He can provide, we will find that the fear of pain or loss begins to be replaced with a peace only gained by resting in Christ. Once we have let go of having to have our will, and humbly desire the manifestation of God’s greater will, we can find new joy in the quiet of His arms. We do not have to hide in the distractions of busyness, but are able to rest in His grace. Like Joseph, Paul, or Silas in their jail cells, we can boldly declare our dependent trust in a God so powerful that only He can rescue us from the most desperate situation. This is when we have the opportunity to proclaim, like Shadrach, Meschach, and Abednego in the fire:
“O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you. If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God whom we serve is able to save us. He will rescue us from your power, Your Majesty. But even if he doesn’t, we want to make it clear to you, Your Majesty, that we will never serve your gods or worship the gold statue you have set up.” (Daniel 3:16-18, NLT)
This is why I am undeniably, madly in love with Jesus.
He takes us from our lowest points, when the weight of the world seems to be bearing down and has almost overcome us, and lifts us to new heights.
This is how – and why – we can rise from our burrow of trepidation and avoidance. Because we serve a patient and gracious Lord, whom, in our darkest hour, when the night is so thick that it has become fully impossible to see, and the fear of deadly mis-steps threatens to overtake us, calls out to us lovingly. His light breaks through the darkness, and gently but with formidable power, He leads us to the mountaintop that we had all but given up on experiencing. It is in these deep, dark, and desperate times, when we are willing to face that which we fear, standing on faith, and trusting His will and wisdom in regards to our outcome, that God will rise to meet our expectant faith in the most unexpected ways.
For prayer on this topic, visit today’s Daily Hope & a Prayer devotional.
For further study: Acts 16:25-34, 2 Chronicles 20:16-18, James 1:2, 1 Peter 5:10, John 16:33, 1 Corinthians 10:13, Philippians 4:6-7
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