Burrowing in Busyness

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I am undeniably, madly, in love with-2

God has been trying to bring me into quiet time with Him lately, but I’ve been very resistant. It isn’t that I don’t want to spend quiet time with Him.

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I am undeniably, madly, in love with Christ. 

But, well, I have been fighting one of the most intense spiritual battles of my life. And the truth is, there is nowhere to hide in the quiet. So I stay busy. Even when I don’t have to. It’s beginning to wear on me. I’ve even been avoiding the few moments of quiet before bedtime, which causes me to stay up until I practically fall out from exhaustion. This isn’t a new place for me. I’ve fought spiritual battles. And I have come to know that the there is power in, and victory through, the weapons of spiritual warfare. In times like these, it is important to Stay close to God, Pray, Journal, and Fast. Yet, though I know these to be valid and powerful spiritual weapons, still, I struggle with the desire to hide.

It’s the pain that causes me to want to hide.

And the fear of the future unknown.

So, like a small nocturnal animal, I nervously survey the outer rim of my busyness burrow, fearful of the light (my unknown) above that cannot be avoided.  Busily, I burrow deeply in activities, and blogging, and family, and whatever else I can find, if I only I can avoid feeling. But, you know what? It doesn’t work. We can try to hide, but the problem will only stubbornly remain, and usually, it only becomes worse. Because the more we burrow, the more the darkness grows around us.

The inherent danger of burrowing is becoming buried.

Further, if we choose to hide, instead of seeking solace in our Savior, we will grow spiritually stagnant. This only lengthens the growing process. Because, of this we can be certain: our trials are the mechanism of the growing process.

Jesus himself reminded us that in this life, we would face tribulations. We live in a fallen world, marred by sin, which we face everyday – much of it our own. Sin has consequences.  Whether the result of personal sin, or a byproduct of original sin, we will each arrive at times that try our very being.

Yet God, who loves us, uses our darkest hour to elevate us closer to Him.

In these moments of deep crisis, when only God can rescue, we have the opportunity to choose faith.  If we run toward Him, not for a specific outcome, but for His desired will, we will find that we have pressed into a new level of faith and a closer relationship with our Savior.  When we determine to love God for who He is, and trust Him with our heart, instead of seeking what He can provide, we will find that the fear of pain or loss begins to be replaced with a peace only gained by resting in Christ. Once we have let go of having to have our will, and humbly desire the manifestation of God’s greater will, we can find new joy in the quiet of His arms.  We do not have to hide in the distractions of busyness, but are able to rest in His grace. Like Joseph, Paul, or Silas in their jail cells, we can boldly declare our dependent trust in a God so powerful that only He can rescue us from the most desperate situation. This is when we have the opportunity to proclaim, like Shadrach, Meschach, and Abednego in the fire:

“O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you. If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God whom we serve is able to save us. He will rescue us from your power, Your Majesty. But even if he doesn’t, we want to make it clear to you, Your Majesty, that we will never serve your gods or worship the gold statue you have set up.” (Daniel 3:16-18, NLT)

This is why I am undeniably, madly in love with Jesus.

He takes us from our lowest points, when the weight of the world seems to be bearing down and has almost overcome us, and lifts us to new heights.

This is how – and why – we can rise from our burrow of trepidation and avoidance. Because we serve a patient and gracious Lord, whom, in our darkest hour, when the night is so thick that it has become fully impossible to see, and the fear of deadly mis-steps threatens to overtake us, calls out to us lovingly. His light breaks through the darkness, and gently but with formidable power, He leads us to the mountaintop that we had all but given up on experiencing.  It is in these deep, dark, and desperate times, when we are willing to face that which we fear, standing on faith, and trusting His will and wisdom in regards to our outcome, that God will rise to meet our expectant faith in the most unexpected ways.

For prayer on this topic, visit today’s Daily Hope & a Prayer devotional.

For further study: Acts 16:25-34, 2 Chronicles 20:16-18, James 1:2, 1 Peter 5:10, John 16:33, 1 Corinthians 10:13, Philippians 4:6-7

 

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Comments

  1. You write beautifully and I can wholeheartedly empathize with you. I hope you find your way back to the light and remain strong in your faith.

    • Oh God bless you! Thank you for your encouragement. I remain in His light even now. Though there are the times that I want to hide (and sometimes for a short while: do). I am thankful for His grace that says “Press” and for His unfailing comfort when I do. Thank you for visiting, Yanique!!
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  2. I’ve found myself in exactly the same spot at times in my life. I kicked and struggled, and fought my hardest but every time when I finally was able to come to the end of me – God stepped in and lifted my burden (while maybe not my situation). Thanks so much for sharing your heart !!!!
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    • Good morning! And yes, yes, yes! Isn’t it amazing how while are kicking and struggling it seems like our situation = burden? But, then, we finally surrender the situation to Him, and we realize that our fear/worry/pride = burden. Thank you for visiting! God bless,

      Letetia
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  3. Being in love with Christ…forever and ever…is all that counts! I rely upon it, moment- by-moment, day-by-day. Thank you for sharing.

  4. This is beautiful — may we unashamedly declare our love for Jesus, and desire nothing greater than to be in His presence! Linked up with you at Mondays’ Musings — hope you’ll stop by Saved by Grace for a visit!
    God bless,
    Laurie
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  5. This:”It is in these deep, dark, and desperate times, when we are willing to face that which we fear, standing on faith, and trusting His will and wisdom in regards to our outcome, that God will rise to meet our expectant faith in the most unexpected ways.” This is key to our triumphant victory in Christ and it blesses my heart to know this is the declaration of your heart. Visiting from Women with Intention.
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    • When I read your post I really, really wanted to cheer out loud! That quote is the summary of the hope that I have in Jesus when hope in Jesus is all that I have. And reading it in your comments reminds me just how much I am blessed to be able to share that hope. Thank you so much for visiting and please come again!
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  6. This could have been from my journal! I have been here so many times…fighting the safe place of quietness in Him and instead running, running to busyness. What a comfort to know I’m not alone.
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    • Dr. Bengston,

      It is so good to hear from the commenters who have shared that they too been here. This post, or rather the transparency that it required, was incredibly difficult. As a perfectionist I struggle with the exposure of areas in which I feel so very vulnerable, but as a woman who is truly driven to point those who are hurting toward the One who heals, I realize that transparency is so very valuable. Yes, Dr. Bengston, you are most definitely not alone. Thank you for coming and please come again.
      God bless,
      Letetia Mullenix
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  7. I love this :) I’ve been feeling so similarly lately- I’ve been really sick for a long time and been trying to trust and focus on God throughout the whole thing. This really resonated with me and I wrote about a similar thing this week too :) Thanks so much for sharing!
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    • Being ill, and especially when we are chronically ill, can result in incredible brokenness – but also incredible closeness with God. I have been facing a long-lasting season of my own, and I pray that our seasons continue to result in the both for us. I look forward to reading your post, and invite you to (if you haven’t) to please link it to Monday’s Motivate and Rejuvenate link-up. Thanks for visiting! God bless,

      Letetia
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  8. Avoidance, burrowing, busyness….yes. I’ve been there. Probably am always there in one way or another. Thank you for your words and the calm spirit of your blog.
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  9. This is a wonderful post! Oh how often I have been there. I really enjoyed reading your blog today. I plan to come back and read more as time allows. Blessings!

  10. You’re words touched a very familiar place with today. It’s funny how the tactics of the devil are not original but still very effective. I will make a commitment to intentional time in my quiet place and pray for God to equip you with strength and wisdom in your battle as well.

  11. Thank you for this beautiful reminder that God sees and reaches out to us even in our burrowing busyness. Perhaps it is especially in these times because He knows our deep, unexpressed need for Him. Enjoyed meeting you today.
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  12. First of all, wow. Beautiful babies across the top of your page. : )

    Second, thank you for being a part of #livefreeThursday. I loved the statement: the problem w/burrowing is that we become buried.

    We were never intended to live hidden away or buried. Thank you for sharing that truth.
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  13. Letetia, I understand about how difficult it is to be that vulnerable and transparent, and how our perfectionism just makes it all the harder. You may be interested in reading one of my most vulnerable posts yet, entitled “Our Heart’s Desire” at DrMichelleB.com
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  14. It seems to me sometimes it is easier to burrow and hide than to really work things out, but sometimes the easier it is the more damaging to ourselves it becomes. It is best just to step out into the light and allow God to take over (sometimes easier said than done). Thank you for sharing your journey with us at Good Morning Mondays. Blessings
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    • I agree completely. In my walk, I have found that stepping into the light in a journey made of many small decisions to do so, and then to reaffirmations again and again, instead of a single choice. In many ways, that’s exactly what this blog is about, the journey of embracing God’s will over our own. Thank you so much for visiting again!

      God bless,

      Letetia
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  15. Praying for you, Letetia, to surrender and find that place in the quiet to hide in the shelter of His waiting arms. Only He can bring you safely through your battle. Thanks for sharing your story. Love and hugs… #DanceWithJesus
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  16. He is trustworthy and Faithful! In all things! Praise the Lord and thank you for sharing. Glad I stopped by from the #fellowshipfridays link up at Equipping Godly Women.
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  17. You share such an important part of our Christian journey here. I’m certain we all have these moments when we try to avoid quiet time with God. However, it’s these times that we should push through… push closer and spend time with Him. He is our only reprieve.

    Thank you for sharing (and for linking up to the #SHINEbloghop).

    Wishing you a lovely day.
    xoxo
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