Eleven years ago, when I had been beaten, ravished and left for dead by the enemy of my soul, Christ saved me. He rescued me from sin, insanity, and bad choices too numerous to count. I promised Him that if He saved me, healed me and changed me that I would follow Him all of my life, and I haven’t looked back yet. Lord willing, by His grace and power, I will never look back.
During the years that followed, there have been many ups and downs, and through them the Lord has meticulously grown and matured, plucked, and pruned. As I grew increasingly aware of his wisdom and power, I also became humbly aware of my own weakness, frailty and surprising habit of repetitive sinfulness. Through it all, one thing became glaringly clear: the will of God for my life was much more reliable than any dream, hope, or plan that I could ever conceive.
Three years ago, I began writing EmbracingHisWill.com. I could not imagine the circumstances that would test whether or not that I would continue to be willing to ‘Embrace His Will’. There have been many tough seasons. This year in particular has been a tough year. There have been months when trials seemed to roll one after another like a raging unsatisfied sea. Followed briefly by a peaceful lull, only to suddenly swell and rage once more.
(Although I do not dare disdain these periods of peace. For however brief, they are blessings from God, evidence of His mercy, and moments for rest and revival.)
The latest and most current trial involves my newborn son, as his physicians monitor him for a possible medical condition so rare that it occurs in only .05% of births. It has led to a referral to a local neurosurgeon. In addition, he has also been referred to an ophthalmologist for an unrelated medical issue that would also involve surgery.
Yet, in spite of everything that I have faced, one thing I know for certain – God is good. He is Amazing. He has never failed me, and so I have learned that I can trust Him. He has been more than faithful through every trial. He has held me when I was weak. He has forgiven me when I could barely forgive myself. He mended me when I was broken. He has comforted me when no words or arms were able. And because He comforted me, I am able to comfort others. I am here to comfort you.
Be comforted and know that He is a God that does not disappoint. Though sin, or struggle, or sickness, or separation may confront us on every side, God is faithful. And because of His faithfulness, when the waves crash against us we are not broken, but through the storm, we are made whole.
When we grasp the hand of Christ, trusting in Him to carry us through our most difficult hours, then we find that He has never let us go. We can stand in the face of fear, because we have seen His glory.
We can set aside our ideas of what is best, or right, or fair, because we know that we have a great Savior on our side.
We learn to trust that only He knows what is best, or right, or fair – and we begin to want what He wants for our lives.
We can experience the peace that surpasses all understanding, because we are learning to trust the Creator for the outcome.
We can forgive the most grievous offenses, because we have acknowledged our own grievous offenses, and recognize that we have received forgiveness from Him that was not deserved or earned.
We can love those who are acting unlovable, because Christ first loved us, and continues to love us when we act unlovable.
And it is in these moments that God is able to move through and in our lives accomplishing only what He is able. I have seen it. I am a product of the grace of God. My whole life is a testimony of His mercy. My children are a lovesong that speaks of miracles and the fulfillment of long-awaited promise. Our lives, my walk, my career, and a host of restored and new relationships are all a result of the unmerited and undeserved favor of Christ. Because once, not so long ago, I was broken, left for dead, and desiring death, but He rescued me. And therefore, this I know for certain, He can rescue you as well.
For further study: Psalm 34:18; 2 Corinthians 1:3-4; Romans 10:11; Psalms 25:3